The Way I Look Tonight (or last night rather…and again on 10.10.10!)

Earlier this year, I wrote down the following goals:

Goals for 2010:

• I will be back in “Onderland” for our wedding
• I will work out five days a week for at least 35 minutes each day
• I will stop drinking diet soda and stick with water
• I will have an amazing wedding and marry the man of my dreams
• I will feel amazing and think I look my best for our wedding
• I will journal each night to release my thoughts and energy – the good, bad and the ugly

I won’t get married in Onderland.  I have not worked out five days a week for 35 mins each day.  I still sneak a Diet Coke once or twice a week (preferably from a fountain).  I stopped journaling this spring.  I can’t complain about the progress I’ve made this year.  Well, I can, but I won’t.

Because of those goals, the two most important -

I will have an amazing wedding and marry the man of my dreams

I will feel amazing and think I look my best for our wedding

- are sure things.  I cannot WAIT to be Mrs. H.  My friends say I’m cheating, by wearing my wedding band around at home.  Maybe I am.  But I am just so excited to be a wife!  To be H’s wife.  I seriously cannot wait for that chapter of our lives to begin.  Because while it doesn’t change some things, it changes everything at the same time!

Last night, I had my first dress fitting.  When I bought my dress, I said that if I didn’t lose a single pound, I would feel AMAZING in that dress.  And as it turns out, I am the same weight today as I was in February.  Though people have commented lately that I look thinner (I LOVE YOU) and I think that personal training has paid off some, I know that this year I have lost and gained the same four pounds back and forth among my travels and celebrations.  AND I’M OKAY WITH THAT.  Even moreso because last night, I put my sassy dress on again.  And I fell in love with myself.  I came home and told H he was marrying a DAMN beautiful bride.

(DON’T LOOK ANY FURTHER BABE!)

Swoon!

I cannot wait to put her on again!